When my mum's nt at home...

After the muscle pain which hurts so much last few days, here comes headache again...
Headache reli makes me become extremely *damn frustrated at all things" a lot..... Argh..

Plus... haiz.. All the ppl around me seems to change...
Someone said b4 "U can't change ppl"...
Juz change yourself... (Change the point of view, think the other way)
It's easy to say, but hard to think that way.... Attempted for 4 years, still not getting any result...

Anyway wan to be grateful that I din get "e" today... Eventhough there is a feeling for me to cry..
If I "c" one more time, I may end up in this hospital I guess...
Because my eyes are really really very pain right now and my eyes "zhong3" d.........

Got ppl say me "so big still "c" wat"... I oso dk how to answer.....

Hope I can stop "c"....
Now any sec, I can juz "c" if i wan..
Dk y my whole body and soul and mind makes me think like my life is very miserable and all...

Who doesn't want a happy life?
X Argh... Hope mum's at home...
If mum's at home, maybe situation will be different....

haha..... happy...

Today (16 jan 2010)

Today wake up...
The headache which lasted for about 1 week has gone..
The headache was like fire burning your whole body..
Especially head, kept sweating...
When thinking things oso, sweat, every sec oso sweat wan...
How horrible... ==
Happy!!... XPP
Now already keep smiling...
Unlike last few days, a bit bad-tempered n "e" a lot..
If there is a wishing star, I hope the headache will never come back again... ^^

2 weeks.....

These 2 weeks...
Got emotional times and happy times...
But mostly "e" is more....
Most importantly is the stupid HEADACHE...
Guess no one will know my kind of headache.. it's dif.. It's something to deal with "xin1 li3 xue2"i suppose...

Emo times.. haha...
how to continue to live? XDD
Seek help from your parents works...
Usually no one will help you when u are down....
Coz it's like giving oneself a bit more trouble.... Who wans? =.=
Who wans to get influenced by the "other ppl's sadness"? lol..

It's common to hear me get "e"...
But there is always sufficient reason for me to get "e".. XDD
Everytime after get "e", a little while sure happy back...
Happy back a while will "e" agn..

Today went chemi lab, sat alone on the second row at 1st...
after 15mins, those who go out come back, no place sit d, only sit with me.. The feel is not so "tasty" for me.. XP But... I managed to dun make myself not "e" la..

Other than this kind of thing, go to canteen in school or findin friends in school is hard.... haiz... Just don't know how to describe the FEEL....

Plus, last year's friends and friends from kindergarden till now.... Counted with my fingers.. is not more than 20... Those who talked to me often only 4....
But truthful ones? ....

Think back agn.. my primary school best friend and friends oso like that leaved me... They tot I dw to be friends with them anymore.. But for real, it's not true....

+ ps : this post is just only to release my "...." no offence...
** You can choose to be my friend if you are truthful,faithful and understand me, if not..... just .. ....

HATE HATE HATE ........
Stupid "FISHING" feel....
ignore me once agn...hahahhaha
Above was just a drama "thingie"....

2 Primary school friends.......

Saw my primary school friend...
Dun reli rmb her...
But she looked at me....
And my bro n sis.. dk who told me..
It's ur primary fren!! she looked at u..
The moment I look back.. She already walk a bit far away d...
I wan chase her and say hi de..
But she...
My bro said she already hav boyfren le..
And the boyfren is very entau and tall de... Dun go better...
haha... So I ka turn back and continue my walk wiv bro n sis in gurney..
Huiyo... So kecewa..
That gal.. I wiv her last time was once gud frens....
But ......Haiz.... suak d la..

Say til primary fren...
haha fate.. Sue yi.. Saw u 4times d... Unexpectedly.. XDD
but din get chance to talk..
Everytime is just waving hand.. haha lol...

Think too much d la......

塞翁失马, 焉知非福...

Hmm.. after know the meaning of this sentence... Perasan a while..
But then slowly I got the meaning..
Let me explain, c correct or not..

if u lose something , maybe will get something better....
That night, heart stirring, but tears not flowing la..
Just heart like got many scars.. kena razor cut lyk tat...
Can't sleep... Nt just becoz of the sentence on top, but becoz of something more ka dwn de... Hard to explain.. Long story i can say.. XP
Say le, no one will understand too i think...

Think a lot... XDD
Reli dk think kam cheng wan...

Bt I think if i healthy, maybe still can live for about 80 more years...

So how about now... concentrate study and dun think too much 1st.. XDD
SPM 1st.. After spm, then only think a lot....

If not, Spm sure get bad result wan if everyday think..
Too much to think... Too hard to solve.. And too hard to stop think too..
haha

Focus study, good in study d, only think la... (talkin to myself) XP

X I love you ...................... Who is 'you"??
lalala ~ guess no one will ever knw...

1st day in school..

Very quiet the first day.. Coz never see anyone of the classmates b4..
Trying to overcome the fear to talk.. XD
Although in my new class, I will a bit rindu last year class de friends... But.... can do wat?... =.=
6hours talked 10sentences... including ya, thank you.. X(

A bit stress the first day.. The first day, teachers start teaching d.

Hope I can "menyesuaikan diri" and find some new friends as soon as possible...

If time can go back, na4 gai1 you3 duo1 hao3....

***A real friend is a friend forever, not just for a summer or until you get out of the class you have together.
A real friend is loyal and faithful...

School reopens tomorrow...

This holiday was short...
Argh... Still have many things haven't do..
Then school reopen already...

Was a bit tired but very happy this holiday...
Learnt a lot..Played a lot..Exercised a lot..Had fun a lot..

Hope tomorrow school reopens... I will learn how to be a independent person.. XDD
But mostly I think I will still be quiet wan... ==*

5SA4 is going to be my new class...
Haven't find any friends in that class yet..
Most probably I going to be alone the first day...

Lastly, hope that
friends ( best friend, good friends, normal friends ) in 2009 will continue to be my friend (best friend, good friends, normal friends ) this year, 2010 or even till forever... XPP