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Bye my blog.. XD

Hmm.. It's the time for me to let go?

Sometimes if we kept wanting something, it's actually quite torturing when you can't get what you want...

Examples like loving a person who you are shouldn't fall in love with or wanting a friend to tell your worries and share you happiness or a banglo or a lot of money... etc...
Sometimes these things just can't be fulfilled..

I can't get "something" in my life...

This " something" is not an object, it can't be bought by using money...
It's something that everyone would seek for..
No one can live without it...
And it's about fate.. But this "something" that I want is not love..
It's something else.. XDD

Perhaps it's the time for me to let go and go on with my life?
Headache!! Haha I am not sad or what... But I just feel very lost and don't know what to do right now...
Guess I am thinking too much again already.. X)

Appreciate XPP

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Appreciate is very important i think..
U weren't able to know when they will leave u..
Appreciate the time you get to be with ur family and best friend..

Many ppl said that "Ppl do change".. It's just hard to predict what will happen next sec of ur life..

Haha.. Bt I sure wun change de!! XDD unless the environment is cruel to me 1st or wat la..

Anyway I respect anyone around me to change la.... Just dun hurt me can d.. haha.. ^^

I am appreciating the times I get to be with my family and best friend..I love my f n besf... == Actuali keep in heart can d..But I always say le, wil very syok, so must say... haha... XDDD

Holiday 3rd day...

Woke up today about 7 something am..
To get ready to a place..
haha... for piano theory exam...
There is a lot of Italian terms, German & French terms to memorize..
About 100 like that...
Luckily I scan through wiv my sis yesterday night...
I able to get 10 marks for that part in the exam paper d... XDD
Last time I forgot to bring eraser go, got merit, almost fail.. ==* (Cz can't erase the wrong answers)
This time remember to bring d...
Hope can get distinction... If not, merit oso can.. XP
Not fun de this holiday.. haiz.. Wan go "somewhere" then cant go...

哈哈

我经常因为我的朋友, 好朋友, 家人:
1)好像对别人较好,然后好像不理我
2)好像有事情不告诉我.或
3)有问题去向别人求助(我也可以帮到的)等....
而去不开心...

我现在才"觉悟"...
他们好像有事情不告诉我们... 我们应该知道他们有权力不说嘛... 我们不可以固执地认为他们到底有没有把我们当成家人,朋友, 好朋友.... 他们也可能不要我们但心啊....
他们有问题去向别人求助, 不向我们, 也许他们不要麻烦我们呢...
可是,我现在还在学着如何不妒忌我的家人,朋友,好朋友对别人很好...神经病!! 哈哈...做么我那么容易(JEALOUS)的..

还有...
若是我真的爱我的家人,朋友,好朋友... 我该尊重他们所做的一切...
而且如果他们做任何的事很快乐的话(不做不犯法的事啦), 我们该给予他们祝福.(就算他们做的事你不爽, 哈哈)

只要他们开心, 真的就够了....

我真的很希望能看到我爱与关心的家人,朋友,好朋友每一天都开心..(没有看到也不用紧)...

要原谅我以前的敏感咯...
我爱你们!!! 真的很爱哦... =)

Hahaa... xoxo

Once again, 13/3 will start holiday d..
Hmm.. love the feeling of holiday..
It's just fun...
No homeworks...
But unluckily still have some projects la..

Nowadays a bit emo, but .... still okay.. juz nid time to change (once again) ^^ And maybe nid some family and friends' especially best friend as my companion..

3days more and it's the time to meet the old classmates.. (tis sunday)
I am very curious.. After 5 years, wat will they look like leh... Ugly or handsome/pretty/ the SAME?? haha...==*

Besides, hope this holiday will be fun and......
Also hope that my stress will reduce after this holiday..
Stress is jus xxzxcxz... Argh...

After a few more months ( about 8 ~ 9 months), it's the time to leave secondary school I guess... Hope that there will also be a gathering oso...

And finally wat I wanted to say is
Sometimes I treat friends unequally, hope no one is angry about me..-+-
&
Once we are friends, we are friends for life... haha..
Friends forever!! = > dun laugh.. ty... XDD
I really mean wat i say, I say wat i mean (copied from someone) haha...
It's just hard to forget some of my old friends who gave me good memories that I can't forget till now... As well as the all of my friends..

Lastly, wan to use this chance to say thks to my bestfren for everythin... Lalalaa ~~ XPP

=+tkw XOXO

Is the weather too hot or... ?

Is the weather too hot or wat..
It seems like a bit.....
==* hot...
Plus a little headache of cuz..
In the new class for abt 3 months already, it's fast... I din even get to blink my eye... haha...
Time's like a rocket.... -_= (said a hundred times d)

Sometimes life feels like a bit boring, wat to do ar?.. Lots of things actuali... haha...
Maybe watch tv, play sports or piano, sing, dance, clean the house, study, try to change the boringness to hapiness? and more....
Just sometimes perhaps we did so many things that our body needs to rest.. So we will feel a temporary feel of"boringness"...

I guess it just need time to get back the "ohm" to live...
Life's fun & interesting, when u say it is!!! ^^
Felt that many ppl say that life's boring and all, so i posted this post...
Appreciate the time we get to live in this Earth!! Haha...

X Lurve ?zzzz.... XP (^~^)

Argh..

Lost 10 marks becoz careless and panic in exam...
That day after bec from school, feel like.....
Very hard to accept the fact that those 2 ques I know how to do but becoz of my.... then lost the marks..
Plus got 2 ques dk y can't get answ..
Hope this time add maths can get at least more than 60 la..

N wan to say thanks to the person who return my wallet after I lost it for just 1 hour.. Reli thks... Although I dk who you are... Thanks...

==*

Can't eat eggs or chickens for abt 1week...
Hope not forever la..
Need to see my condition the ppl say...
Headache problem come back again.. ==*
y always like kena de?
so unlucky...
Today went for the "massage" again...
But phew... Luckily don't need to suffer the pain of plucking skin..
Better than the headache in the morning d..
But just can't focus in study...
Hope will recover soon.. (exam's coming...!!) argh...

Normal foods.. Hehe

The easiest food to cook : egg... I cooked till like tat.. haha quite nice la the taste coz I cook wan ma.. Dk y the foods u cook urself just taste so different...

Who knows recipe to cook a egg more than just cooking an egg? I want learn.. XDD

This pic... hehe guess wat are these... Bones of fried chicken! haha how cook? Dk.. XD this pic was taken sum where.... XPP And it's still in my fon... Lol.. I wanna learn how to reli fry some delicious chickens.. XDD

Three cup chicken XD... my mum cook de... My mum taught me d... Now I am just findin chance to cook.. ^^

I oso know the basic too cook curry a bit bit le.. $-$

=======--- > In the journey to learn to cook more foods.... ==* XD

Haha.. XDD

No matter when or where or what...
As long as there is food in front of me..

I am happy.. XP I mean when I can eat the food la, not just by like putting the food in front of me and I can't eat it...
Nwadays almost every food I also like...

But there is 2 foods which I hate even till now...
The food starts with the letter 'K' and another food starts with the letter 'P'... XD

I like to eat but I can't eat a lot... If I eat a lot, my stomach will easily get bloated.. But I just can't resist.... haha..
But I am very glad I found this way to make myself more joyful..
Anyway I oso will control to prevent myself getting obesity la.. XP

These few days b4 school starts, I am going to try to be a chef... Hehe.. But cook by referring the recipe book as I am an unexperienced chef yet...
Wait till I become profesional then.. hahaha

I have the "ohm" to cook for family,friends and myself to eat..
Hope the "ohm" will make me a good chef.. Gud luck to myself... XDD
But hope I am able to get the ingredients and recipe books 1st...
If I able to get everything, I will start to cook straight away... haha..
Hope the foods I cook will taste nt bad la.... =)

IF the food cook till very tasty d, maybe will belanja sum ppl to eat..
IF fail, haiz... I will keep quiet like nothing ever happen b4 la... XDD

Blah blah blah.. who's talking? haha

Every story in the storybook just make me a bit terharu...
It is a chinese storybook.. But I don't think anyone will go read this kind of book..
Only perasan eh ppl will i guess...
All of the stories is mainly about love,friendship and etc this kind of stuff...
The 1st time I read a book till pg 40... I mean a storybook which got a lot of words.. XDD
So I very proud of myself...

Now already at taiping, my dad's parents house...
It's happy to see my grandparents...
And haha finally... finally...
I get to eat things I wanted... My mum give me permission to eat d, juz can't eat too much la...
Haha... So I oso very gud de, I eat only eat a little bit of oily foods to prevent the historical thing - unhealthy to happen agn...
Unexpected wan, I jus take the luggage into the house...
Thn my mum say wan eat popiah ma? XPP
Haha... I sure wan la... Ate about 6 popiah-s... (*Greedy)
Going to stay here for 4 days i think... Hope it's going to be happy everyday... Summore I hope I can get lots of "red packet"...

And haiz.... dk wan to go ikea (kuala lumpur) wiv mum n sis or not next fri til mon?
Wan or not leh ? Argh....
=== Stil thinking... Hope my mind will pop out an answer soon....

Thanks.... Happy.. XP

Today I learned something...
Life's isn't how long u lived...
But it's about how interesting u lived...
Reli wanted to say thanks the one who told me this...
And ya.....
I learned a lot of thing becoz of u..
Besides saying thanks, I dk wat to do le... XP

Reli thanks, love ya.... haha
Always lyk to say love for fun...

Emotions are really something scary..
This minute, u are happy and
the next minute, u may very angry or sad...
Haha... I was happy and "normal normal" for a few days... Then suddenly, I got bad-tempered for no reason.. Today, I am a happy person back d...
It's a little weird because there is nothing that made me bad-tempered... It's just a feeling made u like that.. haiz.. Maybe the weather a bit hot cause me bad-tempered... XD

There is a thing happened today that I am....
dw say la.. ==*

Going back to father's mum hse today tmr..
Hope I can eat something there...
Because still can't eat oily or fried foods... X-X

X Happy, 101... And
I want my life to be interesting!!! haha XDD

Whole world upside down...

Feb d...
In A class for 2 months le, but I still can't use to the environment...
It juz feel different when I was in b class..
Argh...
Wish time can go back.... XDD
but....
in this new class, many unexpected things happened...
HATE IT!!!!!
but still not to be in this class for another 10 months lyk dat..
wat can I do? juz bersabar maybe...
Last year's life was quite happy compared to this year..
Really miss the days with last year's friends a lot...

This year, I got something I very proud of myself..
I able to juz go to XAXXEEX and XAT if i wan.. (but juz takut to SXT XXX FXXXXXX only) lol!!!

Keep seeking for improvement to go on with my life...
With these 2 words : HAPPY & HEALTHY!!! maybe oso with some love? XPP

-- X Lastly wan to say thanks to my mum who make me become more healthy d... my mum took care of me about 3weeks... Reli appreciate.!! Love ya... XDD

And oso my sis who taught me the way to prevent myself from feeling bad of lOXXLIXXSS.......

** Happy chinese year everyone!! **
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When my mum's nt at home...

After the muscle pain which hurts so much last few days, here comes headache again...
Headache reli makes me become extremely *damn frustrated at all things" a lot..... Argh..

Plus... haiz.. All the ppl around me seems to change...
Someone said b4 "U can't change ppl"...
Juz change yourself... (Change the point of view, think the other way)
It's easy to say, but hard to think that way.... Attempted for 4 years, still not getting any result...

Anyway wan to be grateful that I din get "e" today... Eventhough there is a feeling for me to cry..
If I "c" one more time, I may end up in this hospital I guess...
Because my eyes are really really very pain right now and my eyes "zhong3" d.........

Got ppl say me "so big still "c" wat"... I oso dk how to answer.....

Hope I can stop "c"....
Now any sec, I can juz "c" if i wan..
Dk y my whole body and soul and mind makes me think like my life is very miserable and all...

Who doesn't want a happy life?
X Argh... Hope mum's at home...
If mum's at home, maybe situation will be different....

haha..... happy...

Today (16 jan 2010)

Today wake up...
The headache which lasted for about 1 week has gone..
The headache was like fire burning your whole body..
Especially head, kept sweating...
When thinking things oso, sweat, every sec oso sweat wan...
How horrible... ==
Happy!!... XPP
Now already keep smiling...
Unlike last few days, a bit bad-tempered n "e" a lot..
If there is a wishing star, I hope the headache will never come back again... ^^

2 weeks.....

These 2 weeks...
Got emotional times and happy times...
But mostly "e" is more....
Most importantly is the stupid HEADACHE...
Guess no one will know my kind of headache.. it's dif.. It's something to deal with "xin1 li3 xue2"i suppose...

Emo times.. haha...
how to continue to live? XDD
Seek help from your parents works...
Usually no one will help you when u are down....
Coz it's like giving oneself a bit more trouble.... Who wans? =.=
Who wans to get influenced by the "other ppl's sadness"? lol..

It's common to hear me get "e"...
But there is always sufficient reason for me to get "e".. XDD
Everytime after get "e", a little while sure happy back...
Happy back a while will "e" agn..

Today went chemi lab, sat alone on the second row at 1st...
after 15mins, those who go out come back, no place sit d, only sit with me.. The feel is not so "tasty" for me.. XP But... I managed to dun make myself not "e" la..

Other than this kind of thing, go to canteen in school or findin friends in school is hard.... haiz... Just don't know how to describe the FEEL....

Plus, last year's friends and friends from kindergarden till now.... Counted with my fingers.. is not more than 20... Those who talked to me often only 4....
But truthful ones? ....

Think back agn.. my primary school best friend and friends oso like that leaved me... They tot I dw to be friends with them anymore.. But for real, it's not true....

+ ps : this post is just only to release my "...." no offence...
** You can choose to be my friend if you are truthful,faithful and understand me, if not..... just .. ....

HATE HATE HATE ........
Stupid "FISHING" feel....
ignore me once agn...hahahhaha
Above was just a drama "thingie"....

2 Primary school friends.......

Saw my primary school friend...
Dun reli rmb her...
But she looked at me....
And my bro n sis.. dk who told me..
It's ur primary fren!! she looked at u..
The moment I look back.. She already walk a bit far away d...
I wan chase her and say hi de..
But she...
My bro said she already hav boyfren le..
And the boyfren is very entau and tall de... Dun go better...
haha... So I ka turn back and continue my walk wiv bro n sis in gurney..
Huiyo... So kecewa..
That gal.. I wiv her last time was once gud frens....
But ......Haiz.... suak d la..

Say til primary fren...
haha fate.. Sue yi.. Saw u 4times d... Unexpectedly.. XDD
but din get chance to talk..
Everytime is just waving hand.. haha lol...

Think too much d la......

塞翁失马, 焉知非福...

Hmm.. after know the meaning of this sentence... Perasan a while..
But then slowly I got the meaning..
Let me explain, c correct or not..

if u lose something , maybe will get something better....
That night, heart stirring, but tears not flowing la..
Just heart like got many scars.. kena razor cut lyk tat...
Can't sleep... Nt just becoz of the sentence on top, but becoz of something more ka dwn de... Hard to explain.. Long story i can say.. XP
Say le, no one will understand too i think...

Think a lot... XDD
Reli dk think kam cheng wan...

Bt I think if i healthy, maybe still can live for about 80 more years...

So how about now... concentrate study and dun think too much 1st.. XDD
SPM 1st.. After spm, then only think a lot....

If not, Spm sure get bad result wan if everyday think..
Too much to think... Too hard to solve.. And too hard to stop think too..
haha

Focus study, good in study d, only think la... (talkin to myself) XP

X I love you ...................... Who is 'you"??
lalala ~ guess no one will ever knw...

1st day in school..

Very quiet the first day.. Coz never see anyone of the classmates b4..
Trying to overcome the fear to talk.. XD
Although in my new class, I will a bit rindu last year class de friends... But.... can do wat?... =.=
6hours talked 10sentences... including ya, thank you.. X(

A bit stress the first day.. The first day, teachers start teaching d.

Hope I can "menyesuaikan diri" and find some new friends as soon as possible...

If time can go back, na4 gai1 you3 duo1 hao3....

***A real friend is a friend forever, not just for a summer or until you get out of the class you have together.
A real friend is loyal and faithful...

School reopens tomorrow...

This holiday was short...
Argh... Still have many things haven't do..
Then school reopen already...

Was a bit tired but very happy this holiday...
Learnt a lot..Played a lot..Exercised a lot..Had fun a lot..

Hope tomorrow school reopens... I will learn how to be a independent person.. XDD
But mostly I think I will still be quiet wan... ==*

5SA4 is going to be my new class...
Haven't find any friends in that class yet..
Most probably I going to be alone the first day...

Lastly, hope that
friends ( best friend, good friends, normal friends ) in 2009 will continue to be my friend (best friend, good friends, normal friends ) this year, 2010 or even till forever... XPP