Perasan liao la.. ask me this kind of ques

walau.. ask me this kind of ques..
haha.. i down liao la...
HAHAHAHAHAHA
i bo down... XDD
" hey, u reali changed"... !!! XDDDDDDDD said by myself
Got someone called me today and asked me some ques..
Although it is a bit offend tiok me la...
Tapi I decided to use a another way to face besides being sad..
A bit siao la my reaction.. XP

Today watched taiwan love chinese movie..
Watched 10hours..
Watch till forget to do many things..
But a bit nice la the show.. XP

Haha..

Abv pic: A yellow circle which is a living thing.. It is very happy.. (huh?) haha...

Although many things happened throughout these few days....
Many things was going to make me go "emo" at 1st...
But luckily I managed to still be hapi..
By watching tv and appreciate what I have right now... plus stop thinkin about the sad things...
Wohhoooo.. XP

XDDDD
Hapi hapi hapi...

Whole day wif my mum! DAMN HAPPY!! XD

haha dk who lai... XDDDDDDDDDDDDD


Today i din go anywhere besides pei my mum the whole day..
Woke up about 8.00sumthing and then followed my mum to work..
I was panic at 1st.. I dk wat to do..
I was my mum's assistant..

1st time no experience....
Sure kelam kabut la..
haha.. but managed to work everything out in the end... XDD
Planned to go bowling wif my mum..
But then work too long..
Decided to work till 1pm de..
But then too many patient... suddenly come..
Then went back at 4pm..
Din hav my lunch..
So then we go ate our lunch at 4pm sumthing..

I was happy.. I helped my mum today and I earned a bit money..
Had a nice day wif my mum..
But dk tmr wan to go work agn or not..
damn tired..
Now onli knw my mum is so xin1 ku3 de..
Mus go le!!! XD
I at home always face pc and watch tv.. a bit sien..
Today work d.. come back exercise then watch tv..
A more healthier and better lifestyle..
Everyday mus be hapi!!!

Today at my mother's office..
Got one my mother's fren..
My mother's fren told me a lot abt experience of life and ......
Learnt a lot..
Learnt to work and how to be hapi...
Happy is the most imp.. de ler...

After work.. Went buy some dvd...
My mum let me buy watever things I wanted to buy..
Can't describe how hapi..
Din think b4 hang out wif mum wil oso feel so hapi de... haha

XI love you, mum............. heheee

All Yiruma's songs ROCKED!!

Every single of his songs is just so touching..
The music is like speaking to you
Every single notes...
Every single............
XDDD
His songs all are my favs..

Mum, thank you..

Love you lots... mum...
thanks for everything...
XD Felt much better after u helped me ytd...

I love this picture!! XDDD

I dk when this picture is taken...
But I know this picture is a bit long time ago take wan..
When I c this picture, I will recall back some things..
I dk wil recall wat...

But I reli like this pic...
Coz normally when we are young, we three usually take a lot of photos..
But now almost no more d..
So when I c this kind of pic of we three together (secondary school de),
I will very treasure..
Although I dk the abv de pic go where d..
But I hope I can find it..
I hope can take more photos with my family...
When I go outcountry or wat, at least I get to c them..
Or when I grow old, I can able to c how I look when I am young.. hehe XD

It's hard..........(emo talking)

After the penang bridge run tat night, I can't control my emotions again...
But luckily no one finds out..
I know it's not right to tell ppl tat I am crying...
So I won't tell.. XD
For many times I have been wondering wat does this world want from me and why does this kind of stuff keep happening to me...

I know I can't make the world change... But I know I can change myself..
So I juz nid to change myself to face the world...
Although I know I can only change myself, but I am not able to do so..
Penang bridge run tat day, many ppl that I don't expect them to talk to me, they talked to me....... -.-
I dk y I am this perasan and I always go and care other ppl talk to me or not...
**** myself...
I hate myself thinkin of this and that..
It's making me insane.................
It's hard for me stop myself from doing that...

I dk y... I dk when....
I started to treat many ppl in many different kinds of way..
Some I treated them a bit like fu yan,
Some I treated them a bit better,
Some I treated them better than better,
Some I treated them the best,
Some I juz ignore....
I dk is it becoz of this unequal treating that makes me XXXXX or not..........

I know it's so stupid for this kind of saying.. but ya...
If u treat a person very gud, will the person treat u back that way?...
Mayb or no is the answer...But I always expect ppl to treat me the way I treated them..
It's not posible for others to do so rite? Becoz everyone has the right to do watever they wan wat...

It's had been years for me to search myself and seek for hapiness...
I always faces faliure in the end...
I couldn't face many facts that are real and cruel..
The facts are something like friends don't last forever n etc...
I hate those facts....... But anyway they are real, so I should accept it.. *although it's hard

When I was in primary school, I dk whether I got treat anyone as best friend or not..
or I treated everyone equally... but I stil remember even tat time I often get bullied or something, I won't be sad and I wil think it as it does not happen before... Everyday in primary school, I was hapi and I don't care much about a lot of things..

Ltr when I went into secondary school, things changed.. I changed too...
I still got bullied.... But dk y, I got bullied in this secondary school, I was angry, mad, sad and everyday juz suffering when they bullied... *although my face does not show anything(angry or sad).... In the secondary school, besides getting bullied, I stil hav to face the probs like ppl saying u are a quiet person, zhi4 bi4 and all kinds of things, it's hard for me at 1st.. but in the end, I dun care much le...

I had been thinkin to hav best friends that will last forever...
But end up, there is no such thing as forever..
As I surveyed many parents and many ppl.......
It may be true becoz we might go to different countries...
But still ya.. this is one of the fact that I couldn't accept...
y after go dif countries,can't be friends?

I think that I am a bit abnormal la...
Becoz I don't think anyone would be so perasan about this kind of things..
I want to be like them... Hav no worries everyday, hapi and joyful without being influenced by anything....... I want to be like some of my friends, they dun care whether other ppl care them or not, they juz be themselves and hapi all the time eventhough their friends dun bother them or etc....
I am diff, once I hav friends, I will try to treat the friend as gud as posible... And when that friend dun bother me, I will start feeling that I am being rejected, and then I will reli feel damn bad about it... It's my habit...

Last time, I had been mad about the best friend that I met in primary school..
He is like a stranger to me d...
I dk y... It's juz feel strange for me to contact him..
But in primary school, we are a bit like best buddies and he understands me a lot..
That time, I oso thought tat we might be friends forever, but ya...
It's impossible... maybe posible a little... -.-

Nowadays, I made a lot of friends... I tidak mengamalkan sikap keadilan..
I treated some better than others.. I care a lot of some ppl, and ignore others...I know it's wrong to act like tis... But I am juz trying to find bestfriend, hmmm.....
maybe I did it the wrong way, maybe I should change to another type of person..

I hope there will be juz someone who can make me understand more about how to live in this world.......... It's hard... It's hard for a person like me to live in it...
Sorry I promised that I won't be down anymore and I still down again..

X Abv things are juz emo talking and rubbishes... Juz ignore me....
Current mood : not very hapi...
juz nid some time.. (1day) XDDDD
24 hours will recover le... If not, I ..........dotz haha

"Y can't leh" .... HELLO
Haiz.... haha beh syiok lo................

Penang Bridge Marathon

Today woke up about 5am something...
After a shower, I went to Queens for Penang Bridge Marathon...
Half way, my stomach a bit pain....
But still finish the run and got the finishin medal...
The whole "journey to success", I was alone..
I ran wif my sis at 1st but then I separated wif her the half way...
After the run,I walked frm coffee bean to starbucks then agn frm starbucks walk back..(becoz of someone) a bit geram la...
funny and angry... 2 things together.. XD
But then today quite hapi...
Talked to some ppl who does not talk to me tat often n I order myself in the coffee bean... XD
Back home d, after bath, someone came... XP
After that, I layed on sofa and rest for 2-3hrs...
Then, go qb for fun...
Went borders and read some pokemon books... (gt colour and the pokemon was drew nicely, so counted as interesting)
Finish reading d, i go c thomasjack for 15 ++ mins...
Head home after that...
The end of the day... haha

Cool fishes.......

Fishes like this is put inside my bro's room...
There are about 4 "special" fishes.... XDD
Eg: Elephant nose fish, XX eel, east side dragon and XXXX..(dk wat lai)
But I like the elephant nose fish..
It has a long nose like elephant...
Besides these fishes, we oso bought fighting fishes...
A total of 5 fighting fishes...
They are really very beautiful!!
My bro choose wan... I bad eyesight can't see which is better..
But he can.. XP

Holiday...Bye bye 4SB4...

Tomorrow I wun be going to school because I dun hav transport....
And many ppl will not go to school.. So at hse better i think... XP
Time flies by fast...
Ya, it's true.. it's like a blink of an eye....
I didn't know now is already November unless I look at calendar or my watch...
This year, I made many different types of friend...
Some friends are quite fun mixing with, some just hi and bye friend and some are jus "boro hmwrk fren" and some are ............................
I thought that this year's class will .........
but "sebaliknya"... It is a awesome class to be in....
Next year, abt 55% i will go to A class d.. I scare I can't tahan the stress leh...
But December oni c fate la...
I had been in B class since primary school til form 4.. 10years dy.....
Going A class should be a happy thing but I am not reali tat happy...
Coz in b class so long sure already xi guan how it is like d...
A class sure different from b class wan ma.. Die d...
Hope God help me choose class that is the best for me la next year...

Today is the last day in 4SB4...
Quite sad...
Coz quite a number of best fren/fren will not be in the same class wiv me d the next year...
Boys are boys... wun perasan wan wat.....
But I will a bit perasan la... XDD
Wish that next year can still be in 4SB4..
Imposible? haiz
Friends in 4SB4....
1)lkf2)lzy3)ksxq4)lys5)tay6)ljy7)twz8)oyw9)tcp10)tsl........... n more... XP
Write song wan.... no wan giv ppl c de meaning... haha

Learn til something.... ^^

Today learn something...
I never I will learn this kind of thing..........
I learn how not to go care so many things.....
And quite a lot of things...
Some are secrets...
It took 4 years to learn...
Today I finally understand..
Damn happy...
After understanding this "thing", I think I will not be down so easily d...
geng la.... thanks for those for make me realise that .............XXXX............
Learnt 5 things.... XDD
In just one day...
And oso learnt something which is not in the books... haha

Back to square one is the best..

Today, i have changed into somebody who i am not suppose to be...
I should change back to ... something like quiet tat type of person....
All the abnormal acts of mine are juz so wrong...
Is hard to change back... But it is easy to continue....
I think i will manage to change back if my will is strong enuf....
Exam is coming and i still can't focus on my studies...
but focus on wrong things..
Hope can be a baby again... XPP
Nothing to worry... Juz can live everyday so hapily and.....

Today bought 2 turtle/ tortoises...
a bit hapi... XD
last time bought b4 2 turtle/tortoises, but then suddenly one day they XXX...
zzzzzz hope these 2 new turtle/tortoises can live longer!! XDD n forever n ever......

Help other ppl think..

I don't know why I like tat wan lo...
Always don't know help other ppl think...
Haiz..... mementingkan diri is now de prob...

Changed many times dy...
Change from XX to XX... XX to XX....
don't know stil nid change how many times only can change till correct...

Perasan? dw talk abt it le la...

But regarding to some other things.... hmm...
like ppl rejecting our call.. shld us be angry or wat? should not rite?
because maybe the person we call is busy wat...

Anther thing, ppl do something we dun like, we shld not be angry oso rite?
Coz is his/her choice to do so wat... wat for angry?
Hate myself!!!!!! why so perasan, y so mementingkan diri, y so dun know how to happy, y go think so much, y so ................... ARgh.... !!

X When hate me, pls tell me la...