9 days more to exam..

So fast...
Days to exam is less than the fingers of my hand..
24hrs x 9.... how many hours left leh...
die dy... dw sleep maybe stil can't finish lo...
Exam coming but then stil wan watch tv...
Plus this time exam so late so many things stil blur...
Hope stil can get gud results la...

Gud luck... ^^

Perasan de ppl will always be perasan de ppl..

The last time I cry was about 2weeks or 3weeks ago... Quite long.. XD
But nowadays headache a bit serious...
I can't concentrate on studies or no form talk...
My head was like lacking of blood..
My brain like to think many things which is in the future/ past..

I was doing some homework and listening to sad music this afternun...
Coz listen song more relax...
When do till 30 ques,
suddenly....
I start to think something...
A sad thing pop into my mind....
Another and another and another....
Guess what happens...
After 15mins, then only can calm down... not very serious gok..

Those sad things can't be shared.... It's personal... haha

Got prob, cry out, a bit more hapi leh.. XDD

But hope cry does not have side effects...

Stop....

我不会再"更新"直到年终考试完毕.....

因为........我现在才发现我许多科目没搞好...

都不知道可不可以读完....哈哈.. 本来我就不是很常上网...

可是现在我要完全不开电脑了...

若可以, 希望也可以逼到自己不看TV...

更希望我头晕的问题可以减至最少...

我可以读完的!! XD

还有... 希望所有人能拿比上次好的成绩...

拿到好成绩的滋味真的比玩耍的滋味好百倍...

.不信.. 你就试... "我叫你试!"XP

所有人加油咯...^^

sis, look down this post... hehe

Happy Birthday Sis

Exam is coming...
I don't have time to do birthday card for you..
Honestly, dun hav the materials, so can't do one for you.. haha
So I decided to write it here... hope you dun mind...
It had been 15 years I living with you....
You are actually a very gud sis.... compared to other ppl's sis...
Many ppl told me tat their sis is annoying and......
But I am proud to say that my sis aren't...

Although sometimes I don't talk to you,
it does not mean that I don't care about you..
I just don't know what to talk to you...
In my heart sometimes stir a lot,
because I don't know what not to say and to ask...
I know for lots of the times, I said rubbish and nonsences..
Thanks for listening to my boring talk...
I am very glad having you as my sis and my story/prob listener,
although sometimes you like fu yan, but it is already gud enough u nodd your head and smile..
Because when u talk to me, I seems to be more fu yan i think...

Haha....Honestly, I am quite jealous of you sometimes...
You have a lot of friends, flawless appearance and personality...
But I am hapi for you...

This family oso can't be without you,
it won't seems meaningless and colourless.. XDD
Because many times you went travel,
it is like very empty in the house although just lack of you....

Happy birthday, hope you hav a nice day....
May all your wishes come true...

Abt 16days more....

2 weeks more to exam...
Hmm... a bit panic.... nervous plus a bit scared
Cz very short time to revise from chap1 to the end lo..
Summore so many subjects...
Dk how to finish readin leh....

Haiz... then headache and dk y everyday like very tired..
Need to depend on my luck agn dy i think..
3 times lucky... get number XXX... haha
Maybe this time can't...
But I stil hope I am lucky agn la....
Wish me luck... haha XDDD

After exam, wohooo...
how to enjoy leh.. haha muz start plannin le...

Dot Dot Dot... XP

17/10 , my handphone followed my mum go to my ah ma house... Sobz... I left it in car...Today, tot "he" will be back le.... But then no one fetch "him" back.... Maybe tmr "he" ka back... haihz...

16rounds of running.... abt 400 times of skippin rope... haha geng! improve so much le..
Hapi for myself.. XDD hope can improve more...

17/10 & 18/10
Something happened these 2 days... my .... dw to listen to me.. (0_o) hehe
much more things happened ... =.=
My first XXXX gone le.. huiyo... should have protect it wan... XDD
N the snake.... haiz.... a bit syok tiok the snake la... haha beh tahan nia..
N ya dun knw is better than knowin wat happened.. XP
Juz ignore la.. coz i siao dy luan say things wan...^^
Shh... knw de ppl dun say anything.... haha

Piano...

Everyday after school, sure play piano for 15mins then only go eat lunch...
Dk is it an addiction... =='
Last time I hated piano so much....
But dk y now change le...

Hope can compose a song... XDD
Now still dk how to write the notes into music sheets...
sharps, flats, major, minor... blur.. haiz

abt 20 more days to exam...
Study 1st.. haha....

4weeks more to rest..

4 weeks more to school holiday and exam....
It's real damn fast...
Eventhough some ppl say that I am childish..
but I am sixteen dy.. XDD

Dk wan go learn motor or not...
But dk go learn can drive ma...
coz dk how ren4 lu4..
Haiz... After exam ni decide la...
haha

When you change...

When you change..
u feel like everyone around u change...
It's true.. XD

If expect other ppl to change, it's impossible...
I tried b4...

It's feels good after changing in the inside..
eventhough nobody knows about it... haha

N thanks to those who helped.... ^^

Ytd was miserable... Today - Delighted XD

Ytd I cried
I don't know the actual reason..
Is not like I don't hav friends or handicap...
Y should I cry? there are more things in this world to cry for....

I should smile and be happy everyday..
Laugh and always open mouth & open heart.. XPPP

But I think ytd I cried is because I thinked too much dy... X(
I juz kept thinkin and ignore the fact that I am going to cry after thinking...

Haha...wat my mum told me ytd... I realized that the whole thing is juz like a drama.. I made it happened... I am like the director and also the actor.... The whole drama is like a comedy to some who read the post...

Coz even if I write out that I am sad or wat, no one will knw how to help me... even my family members read it.... What for I write out and make my friends/bf/family sad together with me..

Ya, it's true when I am down, I din think tat if I cry, what will happen to those who are around me.... They will be juz influenced by me... So I now will start thinking before do something stupid..

Actually my parents always call me to concentrate on studies and don't think so much, but I juz wun listen in.... Sometimes will listen in... 50%..
Then yesterday, bf (nt tat bf) haha... he told me to concentrate on studies too..
din knw what he said is actually the same as my parents....
3 ppl told me to concentrate... So 88% hear into my mind dy.. XDD

So from today onwards, I wun focus on those sad things dy...
coz I already shed "uncountable" tears everytime I think about the sad things...
A same sad thing can make me cry over 5 times...

Ytd a baby came to my hse....
after observing his actions, there is just curiousity in him...
He juz kept touching everything he see...

He is cute and he laughed whenever he thinks it's funny....
When I smile towards him, he will smile bec... * if you are not "fake smiling"
He din seems to be thinkin every sec... he does different things at different time..
if u ignore him, he will juz do his things....
He is like living a wonderful life without worries... Hope can be like him.... :D

X Stop being a cry baby... ^^

Today perasan...**

Every morning wake up.. sure got bath de..
so everytime when go to school, periods before recess was usually happy and fresh..
but after recess, I sure becum bored and less happy and talk lesser and dwn de... (if u got observe) XD

Today stil go to skul as usual...
but nwadays go to skul become more and more boring dy... dk y..
But last time wun, coz i always hav a chance to talk and i knw wat to talk..
stil rmb last year.. those two who sit beside me and behind me... I talked non-stop to them the whole day... til gt 2 ppl tl me n boycott me.. XP

But dk y this year ntg to talk dy.. or maybe ppl who sit beside me, i dun feel like they wan to listen and dy xin2 guan4 like tat le since feb... hard to have the form to talk le (like last year de form)

After recess, I got a bit down... juz like usual oso la..
always down a bit bit le.. then will more down and down til i cry... ni wil stop down..

After recess, I do my hmwrk... do do do do til I headache dy.. then I stop doing and do oher things... Do til half way, suddenly perasan..

i down le, bo cry.. i cont. down..cz bo cry, wil not stop down..
i down dy startin the period after recess..
When i dwn, i wun smile or laugh, or even talk more...
The feelin is shown on the face...

I start thinkin things....
I thinked tat perasan things/ things make me perasan :
1)I duno wat to talk... but i hav a feeling tat i wan to talk.. so very wu2 nai4...
2)din talk to ppl tat i suppose to talk to
3)thinking the truthfulness of some friends..
4)recall bec past
5)when i down, wil there be anyone there for me... tat time, i think there wil not be..
6)too quiet wil oso down..........
7)headache...
8)bored....
9)no reason...

After all these thinkings, the tears start collectin in my eyes....
luckily no teacher...
so i go toilet... For 20minutes.. to prevent ppl from watchin my XXX face..
the toilet a bit smelly... tat's the only way... lol
cried in there... knw wil cry dy.. so before going toilet, already borrowed tisu.. XDD
After cryin. back to class.. a bit hapi bec le.. can smile n laugh le...
was not plannin to tell ppl wat i did in toilet.. but in the end told sumone...
If i din tell, dun think anyone wil knw, coz go toilet sure pee or pangsai nia eh ma.. haha

haiz... always cry wan me... y like tat de?!!!

MUS BE HAPPY MA!!!!!!!!!!!
SMILE NOW!!! XD XD XD
haha smiled... ^^

7th October tat day

This year unlike last 3 years no one wished me...
This year got ppl wish me...
So quite hapi la...

Besides tat, my mum and sis planned and did something tat day for me( i mean in skul)... + hapi
thks wz(bring cake in) , k (take cake come)...

I felt very ......
coz I din wish some friends when they birthday... but they stil wished me...
so a bit bit guo4 yi4 bu4 qu4....

then gt 2 ppl asked me wan present nt.. i said no... coz dk wan wat..

Then today after skul, dad called... he sang me a happy birthday song.. a bit shocked.. XDD

After many ppl wished, stil got 2ppl i expect them to wish.. they din...

then 2 become 1... coz one wish dy..XP
the another 1.... i kept waiting... tot he say wun wish is juz a joke...
After 12am... stil din wish.. a bit kecewa..
but then after tat, he wished me and plus something...
Although already after my birthday, but stil in heart I am HHAapppyyy.. XDXD haha
pun lai wan to "FXCX" him le... =.= mana tau.... after he wish n plus sumthing the next day, i wan to "KXSX" him...

actually 6th Oct, i tot celebrate dy.. ate kfc during lunch time.. (rare chance to do so) then in my mind.. ntg wil happen le the next day... then stil sumthing happened.. -.-

I got a bit shy when the cake is carried to my table.. hate myself being shy!!
then happy birthday song was sang.. but stop and sing and stop and sing.. like pause and play..
=.= tat time recess le..sum ppl dun giv face, run out.. but for those for stay and giv me face, i rmb.. those run out de, i dun rmb them le.. haha

At nite a bit late slip, about 11.30pm coz stil waiting msg...
then receive tiok another wishing msg b4 slip..

Slept with a smile on my face...
but in heart tat time stil thinkin why some friend dw to wish..
dw how to talk out gua... hmm... nvm... i oso din wish them.. sobz
Heart and mind stirred... a bit beh syiok.. but stil try make myself stop thinking and sleep.. X)

Juz some things to say....

Wah.. So fast.. it's like a blink of an eye and now is already October.. XD

stil hav about 1 month plus then exam / holiday le..

so many things to study... Hope able to read finish b4 exam...

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recall the days I started being in 4SB4...

The 1st day was like a nightmare to me...

The 1st whole week, I was like so........ I wanted to change class tat time...

But after a few weeks i started to talk to other ppl and became friends/bf/watever, my feeling of changing class is then gone...

cz everyone in tis class are nt bad ppl... Lol...

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hehe.. I stil rmb january tat time, I was so scared to walk away from my seat, easily get embarassed, always do hmwrk, talk very less/ soft....

But then... "Ppl change from time to time... "

I changed as I face a lot of probs of my "zhi bi ness"... I seeked for mum's help... as well as my siblings and dad.. frens too XD

If I get this ques "how you change from quiet to ..... (some sort of kl maybe)?"

I think I dk to answer..

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Til now I stil can't forget....

A few ppl who approaches me in Jan ....... who always comes to my place and talk to me... eventhough I acted so lc... ya quite lan ci la..

din think tiok got ppl can tahan de and tot will not be friends dy.. but XD haha

wanted to say thanks reali.. tat time bo say cz shy.. haiz...

if tat time no one bothers me, I think I mayb wil "commit suicide" dy.. XD

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Tis year, often get bullied, but this bully thingie seems to make me grow....

eventhough I hate get bullied by ppl....

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This year is the 1st year I get good result.. A class's result...

Studying for the 1st time exam was fun (no stress)

2nd & 3rd exam... studyin was stressful..... now luckily okok... not too stress or how..

Tis year, 1st year teach ppl.. no experience de teacher...

at 1st got 2 students... now becum 1 student left le...

Although my teaching is not very gud, but stil I am happy to teach... as long as u are patient wif me..... =P

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Lurve this year's friend/ bf.... haha n last few years too.. =)

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Haiz.. October dy....

stil a few weeks can be in 4SB4... next year sure change class and wun be same class wif some friends le... mus zen1 xi1 dy gua? haha

1T12-> 2TB4 -> 3TB4 -> 4SB4... haha geh gau a while... 3 years b4 dy...

geng leh ? =.= no ? XDDDD

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Haha... there is sumthing tat I wanted to say...

I actually dun wan to say de..

but it is hard to dw to say..


I decided to say... I mean ask..
hmm... who knws what happens on 7th of October? XDDD